Sorry, force of habit. Today has been... strange. And nervewracking. It's my day off, you see, from both jobs. Cam thought we should stay home and hide all day, but that didn't seem condusive to the whole 'keeping positive and happy' thing, so I insisted we go out and have some fun. Very cheap fun, mind you, but just getting out of the house for something other than work was a huge relief.
I definitely needed that. I know I'm new to the whole slendystalking thing, but how do you guys with more experience not keel over every time someone you care about is put in danger? Between Scott and Lucas and Joel, my day has been one great big bundle of nerves. Especially in regards to the latter two. They're just kids.
I guess most of you lot are.
What a strange thought.
I guess that sounds kind of pompous for someone not yet 25, but living on the street ages you, even if you're not running from Tall, Dark, and Ugly.
Right. Point. There was a point, here. I've been reading more blogs-Kay's and Zero's, as well as a couple shorter ones that are interesting, if less relevant.
Once I finish with Zero and the new sages I'll be updating my mission statement. As it stands now, I've already got a lot of things to think about.
Also, I've got the pictures of the notebook. Once I finish texting them to my email address to get them from my phone to my computer, I'll start putting them up for you lot to see. The first batch should be up tomorrow.
One thing that's bothering me, and that might be nothing or might be something important, is that I'm starting to doodle. On everything. It's strange. And yes, I've found myself starting to draw Operator symbols before I catch myself. That makes me nervous, if nothing else, because outside of controlled circumstances I really don't want to start playing with something that might draw TDU my way. Y'know, as much as there CAN be controlled circumstances for this sort of thing.
In any case, I should cut myself off now before I ramble any longer. Rambling tends to mean giving in to one's nerves, and no matter how nervous I am for myself and everyone else right now, I can't risk losing it. I've got to stay strong for Cam.
Edit: Did not MEAN to leave my notes at the bottom of the page. Whups.