Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Those We Have Lost

Just a bit of warning, two jobs, a lot of research, and preparing to run for the hills at a moment's notice doesn't leave a girl much time for posting, so the frequency of updates is about to go way down. There's so much information to take in, and I'm hoping that the more I take in the better equipped I am to fight this.
Thank you so much to all of you that have been helping me with the notebook. My instincts tell me that there's a lot of big here, and I'm eager to find out what it is.
I'm preparing a new, bigger mission statement post with my up-to-date theories, as well as blurbs on everything I'm currently looking into. That probably won't be up for a few days. It's a lot of work, and I've been taking a lot of extra shifts, to save money.
Eurgh. The things I do to save my ass.

On a different, more serious note, two stalked that I've been following have(probably?) died this week. I didn't know Scott or Zero very well, being a newcomer to the scene. But Scott was a good man, and Zero... well, he lost his shit, but as far as I can tell, he honestly thought he'd be helping. I wanted to pay my respects, the only way I can.

Fuck. I'd really been hoping I'd have a chance to buy Scott a drink like I promised. He was the first person to comment on this blog, my first real link to everyone. We didn't talk much, just commented on each other's blogs, but he was brilliant. He may not have always made the best decisions, but neither do I. The kid had balls for miles, and watching him go all out to help the people he cared about was amazing. 
The little fucker even forgave his Moriarty. Not many people have the stones to do that sort of thing. Sherlock, you'll be missed, and I really wish I'd had the chance to get to know you better.

Edit again: Scott-or someone using his account who changed it BACK from his name, is alive and blogging. Sort of. I'm concerned he may be a proxy now. Shit.

Zero. You were a fucking idiot, or crazy, or both. If I'd met you, I probably would have slugged you one for killing all those people. But I felt for you, reading through your old blog. You were put under the kind of pressure that has honestly cracked pretty much everyone. Hell, look at the rest of the poor bastards that got the title 'sage'. Except for Maduin, you've all gone off, one way or another. And Maduin may have just been too fucking insane from the get go.
But yeah. Zero. Fuck, he came out of it in the end. He went to fight the tree, to try to end this. I'm really hoping he's still alive, because if so he might be one of our greatest allies in the fight against TDF. Though I hesitate to say that, because the last thing he needs is more pressure. But, it's true. If he can pull his shit together, he'll be brilliant.

Edit: Kay's confirmed. He's dead. I don't really believe in any sort of afterlife, but I hope he found peace anyway. He deserved it.

Also, a mention for Joel and Lucas. They're not dead, nor will they be anytime soon(hopefully). But they've been in a lot of shit, and Joel's currently knocked out in a hospital bed. I'm not a spiritual sort, but any of you who do pray or send good mojo or whatever it is that you do, they could really use it. They're in some shit


  1. ... How about I take my "smugly superior act" here? Hehehehe.
    Zero was a moron, and deserved what happened to him any way you look at it. Scott/Killer was not exactly the sharpest of knives either. You too must be an IDIOT if you are mourning the loss of those two worthless scum.
    OH by the way. My name is Morningstar, and I shall be your troll for this evening. I AM SURE WE ARE GOING TO GET ALONG SWELL.

  2. ... I really should have seen this one coming. Fuck.
    Hi Cuntmuffin. I expect we'll be very special friends as you mock me and I cuss you right the fuck out and threaten to block your comments.

    By all means, come here, make fun of me, share your disdain for runners and fighters and those who haven't chickened out and gone over to the Slender side.

    Just know that I give as good as I get. And that goes for ANY actions you may take on me or my friends. We clear?

  3. He's dead. If the tree didn't kill him the blood loss did.


    I...I need to get off the computer for a bit.

  4. Shit. I... thanks for letting me know.

    I'm sorry.

  5. Hehehehahahaha. Cuntmuffin. You are hilarious.
    I suppose I do have some disdain for those of you fleeing from Father's Love. But I have more pity for you honestly. Fighting a losing battle. I put you out of your misery. You never have to feel fear again. Or anything for that matter HAHAHA.
    You... And your friends are going to die. Sooner or later, painfully or quietly. It is unavoidable and inevitable.
    I am Looking forward to it :)

  6. Funny. I LIKE my emotions, even my fear. Fuck you. I've stood up to people a lot worse than any of you sick fucks who think Tall, Dark, and Faceless actually cares about you. You lot are just delusional.
    You may scare some of these kids who've never had to go without their mothers tucking them in at night, but I've lived rough. From where I stand, TDF isn't a whole lot different than any of the other folks who've tried to get me killed over the years.
    Though you're right about one thing. We're all going to die eventually, it's part of being mortal. But I will make sure that every last fucking moment of my existence is designed to spit in the nonexistent eye of your 'Father'

  7. People "worse" than us? DO TELL.
    Not scared of me huh? Most people aren't. At first. Hey, hey. Wanna know my current body count?

  8. It would violate the terms of my parole to answer that question.
    Suffice it to say, I'm a tough bitch. And welcome to my blog, bitchtits.

  9. AND IT IS A PLEASURE TO BE HERE ELAINE. God I love Runners like you. Such Bravado such confidence. AND IT WILL ALL BE SHATTERED LIKE GLASS. HAHAHAHA. All of you break before the end. It is so Glorious. We will be keeping an eye on you.

  10. Technically, I'm not a Runner. I'm a Fighter. And more importantly, I'm a Survivor.
    But hell. The odds are good that 'daddy dearest' will get me in the end. But that doesn't mean I'll ever break.

  11. heh. heheheh. heheheheheAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

  12. Dearest Morningstar,

    You do realize he's keeping you as extra food basically right? You're like popcorn for him while he torments people. Once you run out of usefulness he'll just do to you what he does to them.

    I hope you and you're idiotic self are now shitting your pants,



  13. Yes Indeed. I have been aware of that since day one. Isn't it delightful?

  14. Hello Elaine. Forgive me if I'm not happy to see you in a shitfest like this, but welcome anyway.

    You mentioned that, for reasons you don't care to get into, you are highly aware of your mental state, yes? Hold onto that. As long as you're aware of what you're thinking and why you're thinking it, you have a strong line of defense that most people don't.

    Best of luck.

  15. Hey there Ryuu.
    Yes, I totally understand. I wouldn't be happy to see anyone new here either.

    Yeah, I am. It hadn't really occurred to me that it would be an advantage. How lovely. The worst things I'v ever dealt with in my life will come back to help me deal with the worst thing I ever will face.
    The idea's a little eerie, really. My skill set is strangely well suited for all of this...

  16. Zero and Scott are... FUCK!

    There, right there, become two more reasons to keep alive...

    Look after yourself Elaine, hopefully we'll eventually be able to meet, even if it is just for a couple of days.

    -Joel (and by proxy in the non slender related sense, Lucas)

  17. Yeah. I know. And I completely agree.
    I hope so too. Take care of yourselves.

  18. So much has happened to those two kids...

    Death is what awaits all of us, in this verse.