Those We Have Lost

Just a bit of warning, two jobs, a lot of research, and preparing to run for the hills at a moment's notice doesn't leave a girl much time for posting, so the frequency of updates is about to go way down. There's so much information to take in, and I'm hoping that the more I take in the better equipped I am to fight this.

Thank you so much to all of you that have been helping me with the notebook. My instincts tell me that there's a lot of big here, and I'm eager to find out what it is.

I'm preparing a new, bigger mission statement post with my up-to-date theories, as well as blurbs on everything I'm currently looking into. That probably won't be up for a few days. It's a lot of work, and I've been taking a lot of extra shifts, to save money.

Eurgh. The things I do to save my ass.

On a different, more serious note, two stalked that I've been following have(probably?) died this week. I didn't know Scott or Zero very well, being a newcomer to the scene. But Scott was a good man, and Zero... well, he lost his shit, but as far as I can tell, he honestly thought he'd be helping. I wanted to pay my respects, the only way I can.

Fuck. I'd really been hoping I'd have a chance to buy Scott a drink like I promised. He was the first person to comment on this blog, my first real link to everyone. We didn't talk much, just commented on each other's blogs, but he was brilliant. He may not have always made the best decisions, but neither do I. The kid had balls for miles, and watching him go all out to help the people he cared about was amazing. 

The little fucker even forgave his Moriarty. Not many people have the stones to do that sort of thing. Sherlock, you'll be missed, and I really wish I'd had the chance to get to know you better.

Edit again: Scott-or someone using his account who changed it BACK from his name, is alive and blogging. Sort of. I'm concerned he may be a proxy now. Shit.

Zero. You were a fucking idiot, or crazy, or both. If I'd met you, I probably would have slugged you one for killing all those people. But I felt for you, reading through your old blog. You were put under the kind of pressure that has honestly cracked pretty much everyone. Hell, look at the rest of the poor bastards that got the title 'sage'. Except for Maduin, you've all gone off, one way or another. And Maduin may have just been too fucking insane from the get go.

But yeah. Zero. Fuck, he came out of it in the end. He went to fight the tree, to try to end this. I'm really hoping he's still alive, because if so he might be one of our greatest allies in the fight against TDF. Though I hesitate to say that, because the last thing he needs is more pressure. But, it's true. If he can pull his shit together, he'll be brilliant.

Edit: Kay's confirmed. He's dead. I don't really believe in any sort of afterlife, but I hope he found peace anyway. He deserved it.

Also, a mention for Joel and Lucas. They're not dead, nor will they be anytime soon(hopefully). But they've been in a lot of shit, and Joel's currently knocked out in a hospital bed. I'm not a spiritual sort, but any of you who do pray or send good mojo or whatever it is that you do, they could really use it. They're in some shit