Monday, November 21, 2011

So hard to do, and so easy to say...

I think it's only fair that people see the whole truth here, where it's more likely to have an impact.

First of all, this isn't Elaine. This is Shaun. Yeah, yeah, I know. Probably not the nicest thing I've ever done, account hijacking and all that. But it isn't my fault I have the password, now is it? Anyway, second, I'm sitting here in an absolutely gorgeous hotel room,(translation: it smells like ass) wondering where it is my life went wrong and what any of us did to deserve all of this....

I left Hope.

'Why?' you ask. Let me tell you why.

Hope is a fraud. A clever fucking sham that's been deceiving you all since practically day one. I know this because I heard Elaine herself talking about it. She wasn't in our bed when I woke up this morning, so I went looking for her. Usually there are a few places she hangs out fairly often so that people can find her, she wasn't in any of those places. I had to go find her on the roof, where she was apparently talking with David. I got there just in time to overhear a part of their conversation from my spot behind the door, and yes before you ask I was being a sneaky asshole and hiding for a bit. I don't trust David, and neither should any of you. After what he did to Jessie and what he's done here at Hope....yeah.

I managed to overhear this,

"Yeah, I'll hand him over by the end of the week. Fucker has it coming."

from Elaine to David.

I don't know who they were talking about. I don't know what the context was. But the sound of it is fairly awful, don't you think? It doesn't help that when I confronted the two of them, Elaine told me everything about the deal she has going with David to keep Hope 'safe'. Safe my fucking ass.

Elaine gives him information on you guys. All of you. Information about where you're headed, where you are currently, where you might be. It's not much but this is David we're talking about. If he wanted to get you he could and she's only making it easier. If he wanted to get you, it would be this easy.

And if He wanted to get you, it would be EVEN FUCKING EASIER!!


...So, that's why I left Hope. I'm sorry Elaine. I just can't let people walk into this blind, without knowing, and part of me hopes you can call the whole thing off and keep running Hope some other way. There must be another way of keeping the place safe that doesn't involve selling out and I'm sorry David used you to find new folks to prey on like that. It's not your fault. I don't blame you. I don't hate you for it. I just...I can't stay there, knowing what I know about what you're doing. And I can't keep quiet either because it's burning up inside my head and I have to tell you all to get out, every single one of you needs to get out right now before it gets any worse.

Hope is a lie. I should have known that from the very beginning. It always has been.

I'm getting back on the road again, after tonight. I've got all my supplies in a nice new duffle bag and I'm ready to go. This is my life. I've done this enough times to know how things work and what happens next. Time to go back on the run.

Goodbye Elaine.

Peace out, Hope.



  1. Could tell it from day one.

    It's the blind leading the fucking blind. Good thing my cell has service even while squatting by an underpass.

    Shaun, maybe we'll see each other on the road; you're one of the only ones in that damn place that has one itty bitty smidge of sense.

  2. What the-
    Fuck. Okay.
    Alright, look. I'm going to explain.

  3. Well this is all well and good. But does it mean Elaine's little deal with David is off so we can finally kill the bitch? I know of at least three other murderous psychopaths who want this whore's head on a pike. Personally, I prefer it to be filled with explosives instead. It honors the memory of OUR FRIEND THAT SHE FUCKING GOT KILLED.

  4. Verily foul wench, thou shalt not talk thineself out of thiseth one. Yond whoreth willeth sufferith the ineffibleish shankings of a dozeneth angry kniveseth. Thou art a jackass deservingithifimication of OBLIVIONNETH.
    Ye Bitch.

  5. Gleeman, I wanted to fucking help him. I swear to you, that's all I wanted.

    Jack, go fuck yourself

  6. If you REALLY wanted to save him you goddamn murderer, you should have left him ALONE. If you had, he would be ALIVE TODAY. Morningstar would be ALIVE. You would be no worse for the wear. No different than you are now. FACE IT. YOU GOT HIM KILLED FOR NO GODDAMN REASON ASIDE FROM YOUR OWN SELFISHNESS. Goddamn explosives are too nice a death for you. We should hand you to fucking Morgan and let him have his way with you.
    Fuck I need a drink.

  7. He wanted it. He asked me to. He knew the risks, and he made his own choice. I failed him in a lot of ways, but I didn't force him into it. He made his own fucking choice.

  8. @Gleeman: You mean Cifer. Not Morningstar. I am Morningstar. We will also need to have a TALK about that loose tongue of yours about my personal details.
    @Elaine: Shaun put it best: Hope is a lie. Your pathetic deal with that scum David has delayed the inevitable for too long. I pray that we are permitted to hunt you down like the filthy animal you are and avenge my title, and restore it's radiant glory.
    @All Heretics and Blasphemers: Hope is Dead. Or it is a Lie. You will never be free of God, or free from his servants. You will all suffer fates worse than you could possibly imagine within a darkness of unfathomable blackness. You will know pain for Eternity. No one, especially not some insane, murderous, whoring, failure of a human being who cannot even save her best friends can save you from this FATE.

  9. There is always hope, Twinkletoes.

    Maybe even for you.


  10. Here I am, still not shocked.

    You've all bitched me out in the past for not having any faith in Elaine, and for stating over and over again that Hope is a stupid fucking idea.

    Yeah, Elaine, I bet you'll fucking explain. You've always got a convenient little excuse. And every time, these dumbtarded chucklefucks gobble up your words. Well, how long's that going to last? Now you've got Richard and Shaun making these claims. You don't have Morningstar or a notebook to disprove them, and you can't just say they're crazy like you did with Jake.

    Hopefully, this time, you'll all wise up a bit before betting your life on visiting some person you know on the internet who's known for withholding information. Because really. I can't believe how incredibly stupid you people have been. Anyone who still fully trusts Elaine is the dumbest of the fucks.


  11. You know, Jekyll, I never thought I'd say this, but when you die alone and regretful because you didn't trust anyone your entire sad life, I'm gonna laugh.

  12. There's a difference between not trusting anyone for your entire life and between being cautious around people I've known for a long time and not trusting strangers on the internet. There are people I trust. But those people aren't any of you. And this? This is fucking why.

    I never thought I'd say this, but when you die at the hands of someone who betrayed you because you blindly trusted them, I'm gonna laugh.



  13. At least Elaine is doing what she thinks is right to help people. You only care enough to give horrible dehumanizing advice.

    I might be a dumbass, but better that than an asshole.

  14. Did you not read the same post I did? You're still naive enough to believe that she's doing ANYTHING to help people?

    ...well, fuck it, then. Ignore me, in that case, because as far as I'm concerned, you're a lost cause.

    I like the idealism you have. Just don't be stupid enough to let it get you killed.


  15. Uh, Jek, I am. You fucking retard. Go read my post, you judgemental asshole.

  16. I told you naming it Hope was a bad idea, and here are all the horrible puns to prove it. Just another betrayl, at least I don't pretend to be out for anyone other than myself in the long run.

    See you around

  17. Shit I'm kinda glad nonw of you are up hefe. Its simple this way.