Sunday, September 11, 2011

Foolishness, Loss, and Another Log

First. It seems I've made an ass of myself on the RtS blog. The comments. I let Steele get to me. Which was a mistake. As I said in my last comment, it was my mistake for letting grief get to me. And I would like to perhaps once again apologize. For being a twat. Even though I was right, I should've been nicer about it. And not started trying to start a fight.

Grief. For those of you who don't know. Emma(Shrodinger) died. She and I were close, considering we travelled together for a month. She was one of the three kindest, sweetest people I have ever met. The love she had for all of us was incredible. Hell, even the Messenger liked her.
I wish I had something eloquent and beautiful to say. She was so poetic, she deserves better than my fumbling prose. But she was a dear friend and I will miss her more than I can possibly say.

In other news, another chat log. Because as much as I want to sit around and mourn, I promised you all I would show you what I see. So I continue with the conversation we had when he decided to come rescue me.

[7/26/2011 1:58:48 AM] Morningstar: Getting drunk AGAIN?
[7/26/2011 1:59:33 AM] Elaine: I'm in a cage. Out there? A bedroom and a bathroom. That's all I have for the next week. Not to mention... Well, you know.
[7/26/2011 2:00:19 AM] Elaine: In any case, I DO NOT LIKE cages.
[7/26/2011 2:00:23 AM] Morningstar: Do you want OUT of the Cage?
[7/26/2011 2:00:49 AM] Elaine: Um. Yes? But there's not much I can do that wouldn't make me a fucking fugitive.
[7/26/2011 2:01:08 AM] Morningstar: Do you want me to come GET you out of the Cage?
[7/26/2011 2:01:36 AM] Elaine: Ah-can you do that? Without getting into trouble for not murdering me?"
[7/26/2011 2:01:54 AM] Morningstar: Yes. Easily. I can say I am trying to bait Sage.
[7/26/2011 2:02:39 AM] Elaine: Thank you.
[7/26/2011 2:02:48 AM] Elaine: So, why exactly are you willing to risk your ass to do this?
[7/26/2011 2:03:00 AM] Morningstar:  I dislike seeing you like this.
[7/26/2011 2:05:11 AM] Morningstar: So anyway. Elaine. Do you want me to "rescue" you or not?
[7/26/2011 2:05:22 AM] Elaine: Yes. If you can. That would be wonderful.
[7/26/2011 2:06:56 AM] Morningstar: I'll even give you a ride in the Killdozer Lainey. How does that sound?
[7/26/2011 2:07:13 AM] Elaine: Sounds fun.
[7/26/2011 2:07:45 AM] Elaine: The only problem is, I have no idea where the fuck I am. Austin's a big place, and we might've gone somewhere else entirely.
[7/26/2011 2:08:24 AM] Morningstar: We have Resources. It is a matter of using them effectively.
[7/26/2011 2:09:37 AM] Elaine: Like what...
[7/26/2011 2:10:45 AM] Morningstar: Hmmm... I wonder if... MY GOD. I KNOW HOW TO FIND YOU LAINEY.
[7/26/2011 2:10:58 AM] Elaine: Wait. You do?
[7/26/2011 2:11:05 AM] Morningstar: Yes, I DO.
[7/26/2011 2:11:10 AM] Morningstar: It will take some time though.
[7/26/2011 2:11:19 AM] Elaine: How's that, then? Like I said, I don't even know where I am.
[7/26/2011 2:11:28 AM] Morningstar: Trust Me.
[7/26/2011 2:11:46 AM] Elaine: What, did you stick a tracking device on me at the wedding or when you jumped me?

[7/26/2011 2:12:05 AM] Elaine: I... thanks. And... Um. Make it look like you're taking me hostage or something? Otherwise I might get arrested later.
[7/26/2011 2:12:20 AM] Morningstar: Well OBVIOUSLY. My Slender-Tracker. That I got from the Slendermobile inside my Slendercave. No. Not a tracking device.
[7/26/2011 2:12:42 AM] Morningstar: Of course you will be my hostage.
[7/26/2011 2:12:47 AM] Elaine: Heh, that would be pretty sweet
[7/26/2011 2:12:51 AM] Morningstar: We Do actually have a Slendercave.
[7/26/2011 2:13:03 AM] Morningstar: Several.
[7/26/2011 2:13:08 AM] Elaine: Um.  What.
[7/26/2011 2:13:46 AM] Morningstar: Of course. We are well funded and have lots of Flamboyant Rich Maniacs
[7/26/2011 2:14:16 AM] Elaine: Fair enough
[7/26/2011 2:14:25 AM] Elaine: You mean like that Rhodes douchecanoe?
[7/26/2011 2:14:37 AM] Morningstar: Sort of. Most are more competent.
[7/26/2011 2:14:51 AM] Elaine: Ooooh, fair enough.


  1. Well, at least you've realized that we should probably spend less time showing each other our stabs.
    Point: Elaine.

  2. Sorry for another loss. None of these people have deserved to die.

  3. From what I have read Shrodinger was a kind woman. its a shame that she is gone. I'm sorry for your loss.

    I am happy to hear you have a friend though. I hope you are able to break the faceless one's grip on him.

  4. Despite what most people may think, I fully accept Morning at this side of the board. Everyone should forgive between themselves 490 times ;)

    [Mat18.21-22.] (Sorry, is just that I feel unseay by not writing that..)

  5. Thank you. All of you.

    And Keiken, keep the bible off my blog, please.

  6. Human bite marks? I hope Cheshire catches a prion disease for that.

  7. Fuck Morningstar. Fuck him for nearly killing my best friend, and burning down my other best friend's house. Fuck him for nearly killing Kay, and breaking her mind. Fuck him for Flaming Baby Baseball. Fuck him for Killdozing a lot of people, innocent or not. Fuck him for killing Jessie's friends. Fuck him for killing Mitch's family. Fuck him for hunting Ryuu. Fuck him for spending the last few years preaching the might of "Father" and suddenly deciding to "change sides".

    Fuck You Elaine. Fuck you for being this stupid. Fuck you for not slitting his throat. Fuck you for believing there are any redeeming qualities to this shithead. Fuck you for putting your personal feelings ahead of the safety of EVERYONE ON THE PLANET THAT HE WILL KILL. FUCK YOU FOR BEING RESPONSIBLE FOR EVERY PERSON HE KILLS FROM HERE ON OUT. Fuck you for thinking that by redeeming him somehow, that you'll make up for all the shit you did when you were younger. Fuck you for being all psychologically broken and not thinking past the next five minutes. And fuck you for dishonoring Cam with this fuckery.


    Nick Dwyer

  8. Hey Nick?

    Go fuck yourself. The next time I see you, we're enemies.

    Depending on what you've done, it will be friendly enemies, or mortal ones. Choose wisely.

    Though, wisdom isn't exactly your strong suit.

    If you hurt Elaine, I will make you pay. Count on it.

  9. u mad?
    I wuv u 4EVAR Nicky.

  10. It's like you want to die or something.

    ...Maybe I'm on to something.

  11. Nick,

    Fuck you. You hardly even knew Cam and who he was. Cam was one of those people who loved pretty much god damn EVERYONE.

    So don't you even pretend to know who than man is, and who's name is being fucking dishonoured. If you really cared about honouring Cam's name, you'd have not even mentioned it.

    Elaine, keep doing what you're doing, and don't let anyone distract you from it. If there is even the possibility he could be redeemed, I would trust no one else to do it other than you.

  12. Elaine
    Roger. Is just I'm glad our missing brother, is not missing anymore.

    Everyone make their one decisions to achieve what they believe is right. You can advice, but not command. The tittle doesn't give that right.


  13. @Most: Dissensions, like small streams, are first begun,
    Scarce seen they rise, but gather as they run:
    So lines that from their parallel decline,
    More they proceed the more they still disjoin.

    @Some: Civil dissension is a viperous worm
    That gnaws the bowels of the commonwealth

    @ Elaine: It is right for him who asks forgiveness for his offenses to grant it to others.

  14. hey yeah nick by the way fuck you.

  15. Oh, and Nick?
    You were heavy as fuck. Truly.
    Go lose a little weight, you self-entitled pig.

    ... No offense, of course. <3


  17. .For being a multidimensional traveler who had survived the worse of fears.. are pretty resentful..

  18. Don't you know? Nick holds grudges like a bad ex-girlfriend.
    He's also really /FUCKING/ heavy.

    (Okay. Stopping now. If I'm not murdered in my own House I'll be damn lucky at this point.)